Who said artisan?

What about a woman like me,
A secular woman who has reached a stable and secure station in her life – a retreat in Uman?
I am in Uman!

Rama Burstein Shai wrote in the post:
If you have an inner calling to join a national retreat…
and me
I asked who to send a passport photo to!
My daughter asked who the girls in the group were? Do you know them?
No, I don't know, I answered.
Where will we hang it?
I assume it's in a hotel.
Mother Ukraine, war…

I asked for one thing with myself at the contract level, to be "in the place of the unknown."
To strip away the titles, let go of drawers and molds, and meet reality with the innocence of a curious child.
Can testify
That child was in me
And I was in it.
We landed in Chisinau, traveling by bus that was an "autobus" that had everything, from a coffee corner to toilets and comfortable seats for sleeping.
Three hours of travel, border crossing, passport control that was conducted meticulously and briefly,
From there, continue driving for another three hours to Uman.
We arrived straight to the Hoshen Hotel, which was nothing short of excellent.
And here is the artist unfolding before us in all its simplicity.
Getting organized in the rooms and immediately heading to Zion, to the grave of the Rebbe of Breslov. Or in the local language, our rabbi.

The girls in the group are excited, one arranging her scarf, the other straightening her skirt, and I ask if I can come in wearing pants?
Yes, they said with a kind of openness, everything is fine.
To be on the safe side, I got a piece of cloth to wrap myself in – and I did.
We entered through the right entrance, which is for women. I stood in front of the tomb without understanding what was happening to me. I simply cried, not tears of pain, it was tears of excitement, a kind of transcendence. Something was there, a very strong and moving energy.
I lit candles, many candles, I blessed and blessed the IDF soldiers as well and asked for the unity of the people and the healing of the rift that is occurring between us. For a moment, a smile came to my face. I was like my mother who used to light candles and everyone stood and filled the table, and as a child I used to tell her what Lag BaOmer was?…

We began the retreat in a spacious, air-conditioned hall.
At the Rama Center, the presenter brought from the tales of the Breslav Rebbe,
There I met the figure of the "beggar" from the stories of Rabbi Nachman, an archetype of someone who dares to stand in the world with open hands. Someone who knows how to ask for help, because if the "beggar" as a metaphor stands with his hands in his pockets, he will receive nothing.
And I am with myself in my thoughts.
Do we know how to reach out, ask for help?
Do I personally know how to ask for help?
I remembered my mother, peace be upon her, who told me in one of the conversations, "You never needed anything, you always helped me, you helped everyone..."
And here I am, coming from the world of the soul, meeting the master in the philosophy of the soul, in the mirror of Judaism, and this through stories of tales that take me inside to stories of home and childhood and roles that we took on or were assigned to us in the family constellation in which we grew up.
For me, it was fascinating and emotionally overwhelming, as we often take on roles: the rescuer, the guard, the helper, the provider, etc.... It is clear that there is profit alongside the role,
The question is what is the price?
When the price is higher than the profit, it invites correction.

In one of the stories, the distinction between need and want was raised.
And he, the Rebbe, refined the profound difference between them.
"The Beggar" comes to teach a lesson in need. Need that comes from a place of completeness and wholeness.
Like I said in one of my sessions to a patient,
That she has pain and despair in the relationship segment of her life. You are acting out of need, from a place of lack, you ask him to come to fill the void in you, on the other hand, the longing that comes from need is your ability as a complete woman in your life, to stand before the world and say:
"I am independent in my life, while I am human. And I choose, on a soul level, to need a relationship. To reach out to a life partner, not out of fear of loneliness or dependency, but out of a longing for a healthy relationship, out of a desire to share a love that has a soul connection."
From such a place will salvation come.

When we are driven by need, we are in a state of lack.
The opposite is the complete place that prevents neediness.

In a world that glorifies absolute independence, it seems that reaching out, so to speak, is
It is the highest power.

I also learned through the Rebbe of Breslav that all the teachings speak of the same thing.
The theory of the soul with its reason and emotions, one will bring research and theory and the other will bring stories of experiences
And all roads lead
L A D M
For all its complexity.

I am grateful for the curiosity and courage in realizing
That they are bigger than fears.

And if we close our rabbi in Breslov
And the main thing is to be joyful and grateful for the small and the great.